It’s been so long since I blogged on any sort of regular basis that I’m at somewhat of a loss as to what to write about. In theory I have more time, but without stress and pressure, there doesn’t seem to be many talking points in my life. Not to mention time still seems to fly by.
Anyway, where is all this newfound time coming from? I have (finally) finished my Honours degree!! Three long years of part time study (while working full time) and I’m done. At last. I’m a bit of a study junkie, having spent most of the last 10 years enrolled in at least one paper at a tertiary institution. The last six and a half have been spent pursuing first my undergrad (full time) then my Honours degree. (I got a couple of diplomas before that.)
Those three long years of working and studying have been horrendous at times, working 40 hours is tiring enough, finding the time and energy to do what should have been up to 30 hours of study a week was nothing short of impossible. I didn’t get the greatest marks because I didn’t put in as much time as I would have liked to the research, readings and assessments. But the main thing is I have completed a qualification, and so have the option of never studying again. It’s a very exciting prospect, though at the same time I already have the next career, and qualification, in mind.
I have a list of craft projects a mile long that I’d like to do, but without study, procrastination is no longer a necessary element of life. Suddenly nothing seems as appealing as it once was… I think I just need to get stuck in, same with an essay or assignment really. Just getting stuck in and going for it really helps sometimes.
The other surprising thing, and I’m not sure if this is related, is the sudden sense of loneliness. Being single and only having a few close friends has never really bothered me all that much. But right now I’m really feeling like I could use someone a bit more special in my life. Maybe it’s something to do with the weather, which has been utter crap here. It’s summer and I’m still wearing winter pj’s, going to bed with hot water bottles and have the heaters on. Yet I still need some extra warmth, especially at night when I’m trying to sleep! I had a strange dream the other night, and for some reason my old philosophy lecturer popped up in it. And ever since I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him. It’s very odd. And disconcerting. It’s not like he’s even that amazing or special. Not to mention, he could even be gay (or married) for all I know. I’ve also been considering the whole internet dating thing again, but I just don’t have it in me to deal with that. The only reason I’m thinking about that is because one of my colleagues asks me at least twice a week if I’ll sign up. (He thinks it’s a good idea.) But I’m not going to find someone for the sake of finding someone, no matter who it is. I think I’ll wait till this feeling just goes away on its own.
